vampire diaries

Im so sorry ,i didnt attead the yeasterdays class .Because i was drunk last night and became unconscious .The reason is simple i just watched the old soap opera named the vampire diaries when i saw the lover they hug ,hand in hand ,make love. i feel so tarrible and thought back myself life is awful .I feel aloneliness and helpiness. I dont know,maybe i just want to drunk . But i foght about my drinking and losted control ,I am so shamed to remember all the thing i had done you just imagine that a drunk wamen singing in the dormitory and sleep in the floor and cant stop talking call everybaby she knows until mightnight .Is tarrible to remember and i totally forgot is ture i dont remember my roomate tell me the ture.

I feel so guilty when i got up today in the morning ,i am so hard to sleep again ,i wait for daybreak .At the same time i did a little evil things i send a massage to my old sexpartner we lost touch with each other about half a year ,but he replyed my massage immediately .So you know we had a sex today when i lay on his shouder. I feel peaceful .Why not do it .only sex ,no love. no more thinking just for fun. and you by the way ,is a man with good shape is enough to me .no need to be responsible ,we boths kown what we want.

I came back to school at lunch time .then cleaned the bed ,washed sheets ,duvet covers,and pillowcases .finished all of this i slept untill seven oclock. when i waked up i write this .